13.2.24. the day our lived changes forever

There's been many times I've gone through traumas that have made me say 'this is the day my life changed forever' and while that is true, because everything big and small changes your life in some way  I feel like this time was different. This time my world imploded with just the next sentence.

"Your son has rheumatic fever which has damaged his heart"

What do you mean?! My firstborn son, the one who made a Mama has something wrong with his heart?

Why him, why me, why us?.

It took us 5 or so days to get this diagnosis and within those days my mind was filled with possibities, from something small to something really scary, never did it cross my mind that it would be something THIS scary.

I was in disbelief, even though I saw with my own two eyes that heart scan that confirmed everything. We were told one month off school and the thought of him not being able to go to school and play with his friends broke me, little did any of us know it would be so much longer.

Fast forward 3 weeks, he was discharged to continue bedrest at home only to be back 2 weeks later with more symptoms and to be told even more news we didn't expect..